Tory Pereira- Sepsis Survivor
From the time I woke up in the hospital I had no memory of what happened to me or how I got there. I had no memory of the last few days. This frightened me because I was in a hospital bed, in a hospital room with my mom. The last person I remembered being with was Rick and he wasn’t at the hospital. I was so confused but I had so much brain fog I couldn’t think, I couldn’t ask any questions because nothing was coming to my mind. My mom kept asking me my name, the date and where I was. For some odd reason I thought we were in Arizona, but we were in Las Vegas.
I started looking at pictures in my phone which showed me that 2 weeks ago I was in New York, then San Diego the next day. This confused me even more! How was I in New York then San Diego and now in Las Vegas all in the matter of two weeks? Two weeks? My business trip was only for 4 days?! What’s going on?!
The hospital was intense, things were going wrong all the time so the only thought that came to my mind was when are we getting out of here.
After 25 days in the hospital, I flew to my parent’s house in Atlanta. I was now able to think other things besides when I was leaving the hospital. I was trying to think of last year and no memories were coming to mind. I was trying to think of college and my ex boyfriend, but no memories were popping up. I was trying to think of my childhood and all I had was a blank screen. No memories of before my accident were coming to mind. I remembered my family and that I liked sports and yoga but nothing else.
I lost 90% of my long term memory. This was from how long my brain went without oxygen during my cardiac arrest (8 minutes) and also because my body was in septic shock for about 36 hours. I was very sad about having no memories of my life but then again, my doctors were expecting me to wake up a vegetable. So I’m very grateful to be alive and able to think.
When I arrived back to Statesboro, I was working at my old job and I couldn’t remember anything. I couldn’t remember how we did things, frustrated doesn’t even begin to describe how I was feeling. After 2 months of me getting back into the swing of things, I got a job offer to be an assistant and that’s when I really noticed my short term memory was gone too. I would literally have to write everything down. Everything my boss said because after a few seconds I would have no idea what we were even talking about. I couldn’t go anywhere without my journal and a pen. I would even have to rewatch my TV shows a few times because I didn’t remember watching it.
Everyday when I woke up, it was like a new day for me. I had no memories of the conversations or what I did the day before. I was trying to adjust to my new normal of life after sepsis, with a sepsis brain.
I want to thank everyone for reading my Septic Shock Story and for following my journey of “Life After Sepsis!” I hope y'all have a great week! God Bless!
Peace and Love,